Where are you now?
It’s been just over a month since we left the Graceland campus, saying goodbye to new and old friends to come home and…what? Where are you with your Spec experience? Did camp change you in ways you’ve brought home? Or have you let those feelings and experiences fizzle out as you’re unsure how to incorporate them into your life with people who weren’t there?
So often when people have great experiences, it’s hard to explain and live out when returning home. Many times it’s just easier to slip back into our old ways and tuck those new experiences away in a nice neat file in the back of our hearts and minds. If this sounds like you, I want you to take a moment and reflect on what Spec was for you and what hopes or goals you had for yourself upon returning home. Feel free to jot down your thoughts or just hold them in your mind as you ponder. If you’ve been able to live out how you let go of some negative things, I encourage you to challenge yourself to find new ways of being open to God’s nudges.
Whether or not you’ve been able to let go of image and be present; let go of judgement and be love; or let go of limits and be brave, I invite you to start small. Think of one small thing you can let go of. Pray on it. Ask God to support you, help you and give you insight. Open yourself to the whispers, promptings and nudges from God. Lean on the meditations we learned in class. Lean on those around you for sometimes change is hard. Letting go is hard. It is up to you to make that decision to let go of something that is no longer working for you. Check in here and tell us where you are now.
Letting Go of a Negative Relationship (with myself)
In the last year, a friend I’d had a rocky relationship with decided to let go of our friendship…to let go of me. At first I was extremely shocked and hurt — it also didn’t help that I realized all of this the day before my birthday. Awesome. This was NOT my rainbows and lollipop version of what I thought “letting go” meant. I did quite a bit of soul-searching as to what part I played in the demise of our friendship. After a while, I realized the freedom of letting go of something that wasn’t healthy. I looked at the situation not as losing a friend (although I did miss this person), but as gaining insight into how I can be a better person and friend. Then I worked on being that better person. I often reflected on that old friend and tried to view them through this new lens of mine. The friend needed to let go of something unhealthy in their life so that they could be a better version of themselves as well. It wasn’t that I was unworthy or that I wasn’t worth the effort (which have been habitual beliefs for me in the past), it just wasn’t working for who each of us was at that time. The friend actually gave both of us a gift – the gift of space to evaluate, heal, and grow.
As the year continued and I continued to let God fill me with peace and love towards myself and this friend, I no longer had negative thoughts or feelings about the situation. It’s important to note that I made the decision to trust God and to accept that gift of space to evaluate, heal and grow. And wouldn’t you know it, God has recently reconnected us and we’re letting go of that old junk so we can fill our new relationship with positive love and light.
Sometimes it isn’t easy to trust the journey of letting go and letting God fill you with new and positive things. Listen to the song “You’ve got the Love” by Florence + The Machine and consider your journey to let go of ____________.
Know that if you’re having a difficult time starting or being in the midst of that part of your journey, God’s love WILL see you through. Practice trusting. Practice letting go of fear. “Behold, God is my salvation; I will trust, and will not be afraid; for the Lord God is my strength and my song, and he has become my salvation.”